Loss of words

LOSS OF WORDS

there is no is or an us
or a maybe
no those aren't the words
i wanted there to be an over
a never accompanied by an again
but i couldn't write them down
matter of factly
I'm not even sure i could even write the word write
its stress me out
my words remain lost
i want to find the strength  in my right hand to write the word right down
but it always come out wrong
i draw a "R" but its a "W" and the the r-o-n-g never comes to an i-g-h-t
i don't know i was to save us but like i said the word us no longer exist
my mental dictionary has it sectioned off as none existent
non existent
 i found it easy to write that
but the simple i love you
hmm those words i love you
were something you lacked
or yet they were easy for you to say but
the meanings of the words were blurred in your Webster's dictionary of the soul
hmm
the word but always comes into play
not just in yours but also in my own vocabulary
i love him but
i want to leave him but
we should separate but
he treats me like shit but
i him like this but
he cheated on me but
he likes her but...
i dong those three letters were so easy to type..
so easy but how heavy the definition
but, yet, so
i guess the words i need to learn to write
are let and go
i don't know
i continue to
hold on
on
on hold on
to you
but with what words to choose
i don't know
at a lost for words but i know its YOU