Situations: {Family, College and Life}

  So, we all know for the most part that our  family members want the best for us as far as the occassional pressure to go to college or find a mainstream job that makes good money..but has it ever come across your mind that there maybe other motivations for this encouragement to prosper, for instance have you ever had the feeliungs that maybe they wanted you to succeed for bragging rights, or so that they can secretly get a redo on their own lives by living through you..now hopefully these things i have mention are the latter. but still isnt the thought of it aggrevating. i mena it makes me just want to scream its my life esp. when that person or those people have not offrered or can't afford to pay for the success in you they want to see. 

Its like :So u want me to pay money out of my pocket of spend endless nights searhing for scholorships pay for room and board and find the job you want me to have w/o any assistance from you but a hand clap in the background...hmmm"

Now don't get me wrong im not saying that all of this esp. when its also the students goals and aspirations should all be paid for or supported by said family member or members .but what i am saying is dont pressure us when ur not adding some assistance of some matter, all it is is an extra weight on the shoulders and on the mental. Let us live our lives.......

Situations : {Text Msg Balls}

"..Now I"m drunk texting like its all about you, like i can't spend one moment without you"-Kanye West



Have you ever spoken with someone through text messaging almost all day and then when you finally met up with this person the whole aura or vibe has changed, either your different or there different.hmmm what does that mean.. you need examples i've got them..

1. male texts female {hey baby i can't wait to see you i miss you soo much ive been thinking about you all day} female txt male back{yeah baby ive been thinking about you to when i see you its ON!!!} [outcome]-male and female meet, no closeness male does not show any affection , female does not "put it on" the male...hmm.. ...
   
2. female meets guy at the club they exchange numbers she txt him{damn you were looking good last night ..the things i would have done to you if we were alone} male txt back {Word...i can come scoop u, we can chill alone tonight} male picks up female, they go back to his house he begins to try to touch and kiss her, female says.."wait you know i don't get down like that right"...hmmmm.. ...........
   
3. male send female sexy chest pic with caption{now show me yours} female sends back a picture bra and panties caption {here you go} male text back {damn your body is fly i want to touch you kiss you all over} male and female hang out, male shows no interests makes no moves, female begins to make some moves.. still nothing happens... female leaves confused??

now in all theses situations all being somewhat different, to me, the common indicator is for some reason it tends to be easier for these people to say all the things they may truly want to show, do, or express to the person on the receiving end, but for some reason their true personality is either the opposite or nervousness comes into play when the ppl meet. Therefore giving them a set of what i like to call "text msg balls" you can have them whether your a male or female. basically is having the balls to say or send all of theses msg to a person and then your true personality doesn't allow you to follow through with them, or maybe your not being completely honest about the feelings. This is not always the best thing to do because you can leave the receiving person with a set of what i call "txt msg blue balls" which is the outcome of someone having there hopes up and then left confused and or disappointed because who they thought they were meeting and what he/she thought would happen showed no signs developing.

I find these situations happen on a daily basis, and for some reason they have become almost the norm. the questions i have about this are:

1. how do you feel being either the person with "txt msg balls" or the victim of "msg blue balls" after you encounter the person and nothing txt about happens (not saying it has to be sexual in nature even if its an i love u text and person doesn't show love and acts opposite)
   
2. to the people with "txt msg balls" what makes you or made you send those messages?, did you intend to do the things you txt about but something changed afterwards?
   
3. and to everyone what situations have you had if any and how did u feel afterward? why do you think people do this?

So this concludes this blog, my final thoughts on the subject is, BE AS REAL AS POSSIBLE. "text msg blue balls" is a serious offence...don't be a part of it.. it's one thing to over flirt but still show indications of what you were saying is true..fine..its one thing to be completely opposite of what your typing..being it txt msg or aim or yahoo msg..lol anything..its not fun or cute..

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